And I’m actually kinda grateful for those articles.
I go to a spectacular church. But like any organization that
serves multiple hundreds of people, you can’t please everyone. My church is
hyper concerned (NOT a bad thing) with relationships, but this line of
instruction makes no allowance for people who can’t handle more than a handful
of people.
The thought of church-wide picnics, even outdoors with no
walls to confine you, fills me with dread. Zumba doesn’t require interaction,
so the crowd doesn’t matter if it’s not too bad, but as fun as contra-dance is,
it’s hard to psych myself into going because you have to be face to face with
so many people. I love going out all by myself – coffee shops, hiking trails,
pool halls – no conversation required.
Suddenly it makes sense why I like “boring” jobs –
introverts don’t do as well with being overstimulated. I’m not alone in feeling
trapped if I don’t have an escape route when in a group. I’m not snooty for
thinking small talk is a ridiculous waste of time. It’s normal for introverts to
have just a few friends, and not want to be around them all the time… but to
feel terribly lonely if they don’t have some best friend to share thoughts
with. If I can be alone with one to three people, I’m great. But once a fourth
person tags along, I’m retreating and would rather just stay home, thanks.
And here I am, writing. Another typical characteristic. If I
can send you text rather than talk to you, please, oh please, may I? It’s not
because I don’t like you, but rather because I DO. It’s because I HAVE
something to say, which means I think it’s important, so I want to say it well!
And writing lets me be analytical and thoughtful and say things the way I mean
them.
I may expound on this later, but it’s time to go. I’m going to spend a few hours with a friend, her baby, and her baby-on-the-way. Good thing the husband will be home late, or else there’d be too many people in the room. ;)
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